Are these new gods more powerful than the old gods of my tribe? My gods did not protect me from being captured then sold… the cages would have killed most animals, yet men can endure where animals remove their own spirits, and endurance is the curse of man. The waters made me sick for weeks, vomit was an additional punishment for all of us defeated ones, but not as bad as the chains. Then here in this odd land, in the midst of our enduring work, we learn of the new gods, one slain on a rack of timber, one his mother, and I suspect there are others who were the friends of the one tortured on wood. I would seek to know more of this slain god, and I feel a kinship with one so tortured and misused, and I think he might help us, yet my tribesmen tell me I am foolish, for the gods of the whites will only ever favor the wishes of the whites.
By 1800, 10 to 15 million blacks had been transported to the Americas; estimates run as high as 50 million inhabitants of Africa who were lost to slavery and death due to the slave trade. In 1610, Father Sandoval, a Catholic priest laboring in the Americas, wrote to his superiors in Europe questioning the legality of the slave trade. Brother Luis Brandaon responded, “I think your Reverence should have no scruples on this point, because this is a matter which has been questioned by the Board of Conscience in Lisbon, and all its members are learned and conscientious men.”
We miss our limbs, the splay of arms, the limbo legs, the intimate positioning of apertures for sex; all must touch to satisfaction, even toes. We miss the inflections from our tongues and vocal chords, and where we can now convey our words much more succinctly, there is no way to cluck or kiss a minor statement for a proper irony; we miss the sibilance that comes from talking faster than one’s own thoughts… for out here we never run faster than the speed of thought, it’s physically impossible, you know, yet we would hiss and hiss, as if gulls could whisper… but most of what we miss is you, for none of us would trade places, and this, just this, is a fine thing for you to know… our waiting for your own death.